Extramarital and Marital Relations

Extramarital Relations

Almost two weeks ago, I had my first bout of extramarital relations. I'd just finished a fetish photo-shoot, and I was feeling randy. So, I text messaged Mitch (from OKC) to see if it would be a good time for him. It was, so about 20 minutes later I was at his apartment.

His apartment was impressive, I must say... Okay, well, his apartment building was impressive - his apartment was furnished just like any other 30 year old bachelor's. We talked for what seemed like a ridiculous amount of time, but eventually got to the point.

I'm not going to go in to detail, but I will say that the newness of it all was the best part. First kisses, learning each others sweet spots... I love that! All in all, it was a very good experience - I hope to spend more time with Mitch!

Marital Relations

When I got home from Mitch's, Juarez didn't seem to want anything to do with me. He would barely look at me and barely spoke to me. I was sad and confused; sad because he was sad, confused because he agreed to have an open relationship - so it kind of took me by surprise that he would be so depressed about it.

The next morning he told me that he was just jealous and that he would have to learn to get past it. Jealousy is natural, I may have issues with it once he hooks up, too. I told him that we didn't have to have an open marriage if he didn't want to, but he insisted that he does want it.

Today, I had another photo-shoot and video session. During the video session, which was for my webcam channel, I ended up blowing the photographer. It wasn't planned, it just happened to happen - and I figured it wouldn't be a problem, since we're open.

It was a problem. It still seems to be a problem. I don't blame my husband for being upset, I should have called him to make sure it was okay. Next time, I'll know. So, for now - I'm just hoping that Juarez will be okay, and know that I love him immensely.